Sufficated with myself

Have you ever felt so sufficated with yourself so much that you wanted to get out ?
Sometime i wish i could take these meds im on, and make everything go away. But would i regret that ? Right now, i dont think so. After a while of being told your not worth living, or youre dead to me you begin to believe it! Sometimes id like to just get so over dosed on these meds. I feel so stupid, the idea that I have to take meds ! I feel so fucked up ! Why? Because of my narsastistic bitch of a mother ! she had to just drink and do drugs when she was prego with me, Now i wish I wasnt even born !